I am so sorry that I haven’t been on at all this past week. There has just been so much going on. Some of you might know my cousin passed away on Tuesday,his funeral was yesterday,and I actually feel a lot better knowing he’s in a better place where he’s healthy and happy. I’m still hurting,but I need to remember all of the amazing memories I had with him,and know he’s watching over me,probably laughing considering I spilled soda all over me this morning :P So I guess that’s all I really have to say for now,I love all of you guys <3 :] and to the 32654375634096 unfollowers:
Today has just been a blur. I’m going to try and get some sleep. Or maybe write a song or something to take all of the stress away. I am not sure when I will be back on. Maybe Sunday or Monday,the funeral is on saturday,so I definitely won’t be on then. I love you all,hopefully tomorrow will be better. I think I am going to turn my cell phone off because i’m sick of people texting me constantly,so sorry if I don’t text any of you back,but only a few of you have my number :\
I think I just needed some sleep,being with my family through everything has also been helpful. I’ve just been thinking of all the good memories of my cousin and I. Like when he took me to my first hockey game,and some guy threw a hotdog at my jersey,so he gave me his <3 I am going to miss him a lot,but I will NEVER forget my little cheeseball :P I think the worse part about this is seeing everyone else grieve over him,I know he would want us to all be happy,not moping around.
So last night I went to my cousin’s candle lighting ceremony. It was very beautiful,we all tried not to cry,but that was impossible. There were a lot of people there,he was loved by a lot of people. We talked about all of the funny memories,like when I was 5 he ripped the head off my Barbie doll and threw it in the deep end of the pool so I couldn’t get it,he finally got it out a week later. Or whenever we would have family get-togethers he would always watch Step Brothers and fall asleep and pass out on the floor. And the long car rides,don’t even get me started on those haha. He had this loud laugh,that was just so infectious,and he could cheer anybody up. I remember once when I was 5,I fell off my bike,he came up to me and just gave me a big hug and told me to stop crying because it was making him sad. I knew he loved his family,and I know he knew that he was very loved. I don’t think my world will EVER be the same without him. I love that cheeseball <3
I just found out my cousin passed away from a heart attack. I don’t even know what to do now.He had a daughter and a son,and they don’t even know what’s going on. Like everything feels like a dream,I honestly don’t want to believe it. He was like my best friend,and I literally just found out like 5 minutes ago. I am sorry if I’m not going to be on as much more guys,but for a while I just might need some space. I love you all.
“Is hockey hard? “I don’t know, you tell me. We need to have the strength and power of a football player, the stamina of a marathon runner, and the concentration of a brain surgeon. But we need to put all this together while moving at high speeds on a cold and slippery surface while 5 other guys use clubs to try and kill us, oh yeah did I mention that this whole time we’re standing on blades 1/8 of an inch thick? Is ice hockey hard? I don’t know, you tell me. Next question.”—-Brendan Shanahan (via mikefuckingcomrie)